everyone hates me. wtf do i do now? i haven’t felt this depressed in a long time. i’m fucking up. no i’ve been fucking up. so many people who have cared for me and i’ve disappointed them time and time again. i just need to disappear. start a new life somewhere else away from everybody. oh i’ll do good maybe when i’ve changed these people will look at who i used to be and not what i’ve turned into. this time i will not point fingers except to myself.
in about 2 months i will be 23 and nothing to show for it. i thought 2010 would be my year but once again i fucked up. 2011 is coming up and i don’t wanna waste anymore time. i plan on having a steady job, new life, new career, new car, new everything. i’m tired of my old life, i’m tired of everything around me. things has to change and i need to do it fast. i need to stay focus and keep moving forward. the past is behind me now and i’m looking towards my future.